so this is katinka (and me).

she's my best friend's girlfriend. i really love her. it's quite funny actually, the friendship constellation between me, her and my best friend. it's a bit hard to explain, but ... it's a bit ike in scrubs, where jd is turk's best friend and also carla's best friend. so everytime turk's not there, jd and carla sort of connect and talk about everything ... really intimately, too, which is possible because all three of them know just about everything about each other.

this might all sound a bit comical, but that's the way it is with the three of us.

they've been together for a bit over 2 years now. scary actually, because you start wondering ... with no end in sight ... is that going to be your best friends last girl?

anyway, the evening that these pictures were taken was one of many evenings and nights where HE's a bit too drunk, having lots of fun, doesn't want to leave yet. but she does, because she's somber, being the driver for the night, and wants to go home eventually. when he doesn't want to though, she escapes to me and we take a long walk somewhere on which she confesses to me the same things as always, how she love him but just hates so many little things about him and how they make her really angry every so often ...

i tell her i know exactly what she means, which is true to the heart, and we hug and start walking back. then we hang out together for the rest of the evening, discussing everything remotely discussable and finally leave when my more or less drunk friend decides to give in because of his jealousy and come home.

then they fight on the way to the car and when i'm about to say i'll see them tomorrow and that they shouldn't fight, they insist on me coming home with them for a drink or something ... which would normally be completely out of line and very weird if we wouldn't all be so close ...

next morning everything's ok again ... as always ... and you know it gets me thinking everytime. about relationships ... i mean it's been a while since my last s e r i o u s relationship and i wonder whether i would "do it better", you know ... then again, if you're together for over 2 years ... it's hard to find an answer either way ...

anyway i've had lots of those nights and interestingly they always happen in the same way, and only if he's had some drinks, and she and i are somber. if i'm drunk as well, i just stay out of the whole business altogether.

and before i stop writing about this (stupid) topic, i'll have to admit i get sick of it regularly as well. most of the time because of his infantile behaviour, the rest of the time because of her inconsistent actions and attitude.

well ... i don't know how i would do it, i've never really made it as long as they have, so i don't know what difference that would make, but as a "neutral" outsider i think i would handle it differently ...

it's all quite funny actually ... friendships and girlfriends =)