my life in words and pictures

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this is me, trying to put down my thoughts about everything and anything in the most sincere way possible, trying to find order in the chaos that is my life, trying to throw some mediocre-to-good pictures in along the way and trying to do it all in such a charming way that maybe someone actually finds pleasure in reading it all.

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last night

i was actually dreading new year's because ...
i don't actually know. if i think back to each new year's eve of my last ... maybe 4 years, each one is connected to a certain emotional state i was in at that time, which was based on many things, including who i celebrated with and how i felt about the year coming.

so this year was weird because i know i'm going to move in the summer - and it's going to be a big move - and every time i think about it, the whole thing is connected with so many feelings, excitement, joy, impatience, but also dread, in a way, and fear.

but that's a whole other subject. and i don't want to get lost.

so as i was saying last nite was wonderful, but part of that wonderfulness probably derives from the fact that i didn't expect it to be very good. why? that's another story, coming very soon, to a blog near you :)

in true wingmaker style:

i had dinner with c, b and m, then watched the firework as it snowed with b, k, r and her sister. we also stumbled upon j. i then got kind of drunk and found myself in a white limousine, not able to stop laughing because we had simply knocked in the back and told the well-dressed casino-guests that the driver said it's ok. they laughed with us because they weren't stupid. the limo took us in the exact other direction of where we wanted to go, but luckily stopped soon, and on the way back i hurt my foot. but i was still able to walk so we met up with j and c and walked along the lake to r, the two h's, s and all the rest. because i felt shitty towards j and r, was slightly bored and received a message from my favourite girl r, who wanted me to come back to the island and dance, i left and went dancing until my foot stopped hurting. k was also there and on the way i walked into our singing-queen, f, together with m, who i keep on wondering whether he's in love or not.

another hour later i fell into my bed and fell asleep immediately so as not to have to experience the sun coming up again. i hate when that happens, and i don't know why.

i do have to add that the only reason that i fell into my own bed was that the buses were going all night long. but that was ok, i had been bad enough all evening anyway. i thought a lot about fee and luckily not at all about the sad fact that it felt like i lost a friend today.

this morning i felt warm and dizzy.

1st Jan 2008, 19:31  


MaggieD says:

I'm staying with the warm and dizzy :)

1st Jan 2008, 20:06

chocolate says:


yes we definitely need to have good long chat, i'm all for it.

ok, so:

- ur right about j, or at least one, seeing as there are two different j's in my little narrative.
- you are not my favourite girl, because you are special, and i can't compare you with all the other girls. you are unique and you are more than favourite :)
- ur name begins with s? mine begins with j. i really really wonder what it is.
- told you so our glasses look alike.
- i'm moving to munich, right into the city. i wonder if i'll like it.

1st Jan 2008, 22:44

chocolate says:

of course ur more than my favourite, really now, what did you think??

why is j surprising?

i think i'll love munich, too. but now i'm going to go look for your name!

3rd Jan 2008, 23:36

chocolate says:

ok i'm really not sure but is it ... stacey!?

i don't think mine is anywhere on here but ... maybe i'll tell you anyway. if you ask nicely.

5th Jan 2008, 17:05