biopsy tissue

It's difficult to know what to say beyond the usual platitudes. Continue to be strong and courageous!

Thank you factotum. A friend just told me to get angry. I'm not.
I know I'll get through it but am really, really upset that I won't be able to do any serious cycling for so long after the op.

I'm also not looking forward to the next few months

What awful news. So very sorry. What a lot to go through but you sound like you are going to come through it all smiling. I hope you can feel my admiration for your courage as well as supportive hugs racing through the ether.

As factotum: Speechless.

I am still looking forward to meeting you sometime in the future, and as ever if you need a distraction you know where I am.

*hugs*

I don't know what to say, but am sending you my love. x

Oh damn, Dhamaka. You're going to be going through a lot of emotions, just let them happen. Your overall health, your life is what means the most, even though you're going to find yourself focused on small things for the next while.

I went through some issues with this several years ago. You need or want anything, including someone to yell at, I'm here for you. xxx

I am so sorry for the stress you are feeling right now, and if goodwishes count for anything you know that you have oh so many coming to you..... i hope they give you some comfort
more * hugs* from me too.....

Sending positive energy and love to you. I'll be in touch. xxxxx Lisa

I really doubt i would be so brave as you. You have always seemed like a very strong person, and i have complete faith in your ability to not just beat this but to find some fascinating way to use this as a experience that you learn and grow from. We will be thinking about you over the coming months, and looking forward to seeing pics of you back on your bike as soon as possible :) Love from me and Han, xx

man oh man. so sorry to hear that D. be strong and stay as positive as you can. don't underestimate the power of the mind, a smile goes a mile.xxx

Our loving healing thoughts are being blown your way with a million kisses too.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Life's such a bitch. This is the last thing that should be happening to you with all that you've got to give the world and all the wonderful things you have planned. I am really, really upset for you. Sending love xxx

Not enough words ...Positive thinking gets a long way and help keep your energy to fight it. If can help anyway. Lots of hugs xxxx

(( Big Hugs)) xxxx

I'm really sorry to hear this and I wish you all the best and a speedy recovery. You're one of the fittest and most active people I know, so I'm confident you'll beat this.

Shout when you want fancy a curry X

My gods! Sending you all my energy and positive vibes, hugs, love and xxxxx

It's hard to know what to say. Like everyone else, if there's anything I can do just ask. If there's one thing you can be sure of right now it's that you've got lots of friends who will be there to support you through this. Keep that in mind when things are looking black.

We All Love you Carole!

Oh I'm so sorry to hear that. Makes my current probelm seem very trivial. When you say "chest" is it in your lung? I will be thinking of you and please let me know if there is anything I can do. A xxxx

Oh my! Well at least you know what it is now. You'll get through this. There will be more cycling, much more, and more importantly, cake :) Thinking of you, and if there's anything I can do at all please let me know.
x

I'm so sorry to hear that too and also wishing you strength.

I hope this is not inappropriate but I was just this weekend talking to one of my best friends, who is now nearly three years clear of cancer in her chest (non hodgkins lymphoma). She was terrified at the time too.

This smiley portrait of her is one of my favourite ever highlights.

Just wanted to share some hope and the big smile of a survivor with you. I hope that's okay.

Thank you everyone for your support. It's strange, but reading your messages somehow helps me find serenity in my own feelings.

Caine - I'm so sorry to hear that, but pleased that you're here to say it now and offer a very special type of support

Paintist - they do, they give me a kind of strength and thank you

Lisa, Claire and Christina - it means a lot that you who aren't mobloggers bothered to post these messages (and you Keith, although as an ex-moblogger it's not quite the same)

Keith - you think that's the only time I'll be shouting? heh

Euphro - thank you but please don't belittle any problems you're going through. I'd like to say if there's anything I can do for you please tell me but suspect I'm not going to be that reliable for a while

Kristiyan - :) thank you xx

OJ absolutely and thank you

javama, Kyoob, Wendle, Mandy, mysocalledmoblog, Twiglet, minkey, Craft, Crickson, Puddlepuff, harimanjaro, Spiderbaby thank you. I don't know what - if anything - I would need but please continue to visit my blog, twitter account or private facebook account . I already really do appreciate your comments even when I don't answer them directly, and it's going to be nice to know that people are thinking of me

Likewise, lots of healing vibes from me to you. Fingers crossed, Lucky cats on standby. I'm glad to hear that you can find some feelings of serenity at this time.

I'm thinking of you.

I'm so sorry, Carole. You can get through this. I'm just so sorry.

This is terrible news and my heart sank when I heard it. I hope you feel much strength for this difficult time.

The worst kind of news :( You've got a pretty crappy few months ahead of you now! Roll with it, bend like the reeds, flow with it and let your friends and family be your anchor when they need to be.
You're going to have such a good time getting back into your cycling though. But don't listen to Spiderbaby - CAKE IS A LIE!! (Soz for nerding!)
Thinking of you from Afghanistan x

Oh god. I'm so sorry. Thinking of you, wishing you strength. If you fancy a coffee and a chat and a moan or need anything please get in touch x

Oh no. Not you, too. :(

I'm so sorry.

But you're on of the most determined people I know, so I know you'll pull through this. I'm thinking of you, C. Be strong. And tell me if you need anything.

xo Sonja

I'm really sorry, sending you all my positive vibes, kind thoughts and lots of love. You are an inspiration in all that you do and you will face this challenge and win.

I'm so very sorry to hear this.
Try and stay strong. I'll be sending positive, healthy thoughts for the challenges you'll face in the coming months.

oh no. so sorry to hear this. If anyone can beat it, you can.

Aswith everybody else, I'm sorry that you have to go through this. Deep breaths, positive thought.

so sorry to hear this wishing you all good wishes
stay strong

so sorry to hear this wishing you all good wishes
stay strong

Stay positive and strong, I'll be in touch in the next day or two, meanwhile, lots of healing vibes, love and hugs ......

Oh no! Sending lots of positive wishes your way and hoping you get through this as smoothly as you can.

H x

Thank you tullis, Tori, bronxelf, taniwha, spoon_lamp (but chocolate sponge cake never lies), kel (I will), MrIguana, Daz, Puddikat, EJ, swamprose, nalsa, kaz, Maggie, Helen and AmericanFriend

D, I am so incredibly sorry to hear the news. You are one of the strongest bravest people I know, if anyone can kick it, you can. Sending you much love & strength.

Awful news to receive, but I agree with Swamprose: If anyone can pull through, you can.

I'll be keeping you in my thoughts.

Oh sod. Not one of your better days, eh?
Go as easy on yourself as you can for a few days - ride out the shock. It's staggering how one bit of information can be so damnably big & disorientating. Am certain sure though, that cake features in all gold-standard treatment protocols, Spoons is just jealous because their medics don't carry any.
Good luck tomorrow...

I read this while at work today and couldn't reply then. I'm so sorry D, you are in my thoughts and prayers. If there is anything I can do from way over here, please let me know.

Dear Dhamaka, such bad news..... And the not knowing exactly where or how or why... So it looks the next year or so will be dedicated to your health - getting over it and recover. At least you know that much. All I can say is do your best, because I selfishly want you back here...! Sending you love J xx

Will be thinking of you today.
Positive vibes winging their way from over here.

So sorry that it was bad news, though also glad that the clinic did take the biopsy and so your treatment can start asap. Try and take things one day at a time,
thinking of you x

Carole I'm so sorry to hear this news. I've seldom come across anyone as determined and focused as you though; you are the definition of 'a fighter'. We're all here for you.

Yeah, if I was going to place money on anyone having the strength of will to kick cancer's ass and make it their bitch i'd be betting on you. It's picked the wrong person to pick on this time.

Thinking of you. Sending you stength. I feel so sad.

Thinking of you. Sending you stength. I feel so sad.

Two times can't hurt.

Very sorry to hear this! Lots of strengh from me too! < 3

Carole, Thank you for the update. Just know you will continue to be in my prayers and thoughts. I will say that I got a bit of a chuckle out of one of your major disappointments, not being able to ride your bike.

I hope and pray your surgery and rest of the treatment goes smoothly. My only bit of advise, do not hesitate to rely on your friends when you need help or support, even just someone to talk to.

There isnt much to say that hasnt been said already so I'll just send you a nice big hug *hugs* x

thank you all
off to the hospital again now

I got the boyfriend (who works in IT here at my hospital now) to get me in through the backdoor, untraced. Hopefully won't get caught, or it'll be big bad news, but this is *important* to me.

I think a little angry helps. I know that a lot of angry doesn't. But a little angry can help push out the helpless. The helpless was the hardest thing for me to deal with. I know that all the people who love you will help and that is the biggest thing. Moblog helped me more than I can ever express, and I miss everyone terribly. (three jobs and no moblog at work make it hard to get in here at all, so I heartily apologize to anyone who reads this for my dropping off the planet.)

I'm angry that this is happening to you, but I am glad for the support you have, and for the strong will that you posess. As many have said, if anyone can beat this, you can.

Many *hugs*, anti-nausea thoughts, and please email me if I can be of any mental help. Bronxelf knows where to find me if you don't have my email.

***HUGS***

We're all thinking of you and shall continue to do so. :-) xx

Glad you read the text, thoughts and hugs again.

Oh bugger.

My thoughts are with you.

thank you everyone
YourHermione, thank you so much for this. I appreciate your offer and may well take you up on it in the future. I sincerely hope you weren't caught.

Will teach me to keep up - thanks to Maggie for drawing my attention with her post. Got to be you first now girl. Will email x

thanks Viv

D- sometimes life's just not fair and then this comes along and you really know its not... I don't know what to say that would help except that you have every reason to be angry but also be encouraged by all the people you know who are still here after having been through this too. You can do this.. and we're all here to help when you need us.

what a bastard, after everything etc etc, you deserve so much better

thinking of you

xxhugsxx

call me whenever, for anything, a laugh, a book, a cry, a chicken drumstick, if you're vegetarian... some tofu? whatever you need.

So, I leave the country for a week, drop back into Holland this morning, check what the "gang" has been up to and this whacks me in the face.

Carole, this aint fair! Why do the good-guys have to get this?
Should I come round and do some stomping? With my new hair-do I'll send them nasty cells scurrying off with just a look and a growl.

All our very best wishes to you, strength and courage being transmitted your way from all over the world. Kick its ass and let's go cycling somewhere soon.
If you need a week away, our home is yours, for anything else just ask, anything.
x, M

hello you, I've only just found out. I'm a bit shocked and sad. let me know if there's anything I can do.

bxx

thanks everyone - this is much appreciated

Just saw on FB. So sorry. xoxo
If you can't get angry just yet, you're welcome to borrow some angry from me; this is the second time this month I've heard the same news about a friend. I know that you will kick cancer's sorry ass, but I am so very, very sorry that you have to.
xo, T

((((((((H))))))))

Carole your in my thoughts, i have a friend going through the same thing. She is amazing and strong and with support is fighting it. XX

Hugs and kisses from Mara and me, I'm crossing fingers and we both are in empathy with you Carole...

We hope to have a tour of Florence with you as soon as possible so you must be good to come in Italy! ;)

Woof from Totò xD

Much love

My poor C: I've only just found out the news.

Much love and chocolate cake to you.

Late as I always am to everything, just wanted to back up what SLG said to you. You know where we are :)

Really enjoyed your last lot of pictures, but once again being the busy little bee you always are at milongas, missed you for a dance again! In terms of empathy, all I can say is I nearly lost my sight twice, but had it saved by surgery, and I'm terrified of hospital! I guess overcoming fear is the worst. I wish you well, and look forward to seeing more of your work soon. An open invitation to dance always exists.....Love Sean XX

Take care, okay? /hug

You have a lot of excellent support here, far more and better words than I could possibly offer, but I do want to add one more voice of someone thinking of you and sending you good thoughts.

you're all wonderful
xx

Prayers in your direction.

thank you AAH