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"Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results"........ Albert Einstein


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This is my personal blog, not a venue for saleable images. In fact, because it's here that I share things that are important to me with the members of the moblog community, photo quality's not my priority. Events, occasions, achievements, thoughts, trips and experiments - you'll find them all here. Contact me for the development version of my photo portfolio, for a selection of saleable images or visit my dance photography blog or my website for cuttings. And remember that all photos remain my copyright unless I've specifically said otherwise.

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"Every time I see an adult on a bicycle I no longer despair for the future of the human race"
........ H G Wells

"All life is an experiment. The more experiments you make the better"
........ Ralph Waldo Emerson

"Luck favours the prepared mind"
........ Louis Pasteur

"Never to get lost is not to live, not to know how to get lost brings you to destruction, and somewhere in the terra incognita in between lies a life of discovery."
........ Rebecca Solnit

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........ Isabel Allende

"Don't ask yourself what the world needs - ask yourself what makes you come alive, and then go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive."
........ Harold Thurman Whitman

"The real voyage of discovery consists not of seeing new landscapes, but in having new eyes...."
........ Marcel Proust

"It is by riding a bicycle that you learn the contours of a country best, since you have to sweat up the hills and coast down them.. you have no such accurate remembrance of a country you have driven through as you gain by riding a bicycle...."
........ Ernest Hemingway

"Ambition leads me not only father than any other man has been before me, but as far as I think it is possible for man to go."
........ James Cook

"The grand show is enternal. It is always sunrise somewhere; the dew is never dried all at once; a shower is forever falling; vapour is ever rising. Eternal sunrise, eternal dawn and gloaming, on sea and continents and islands, each in its turn, as the round earth rolls."
........ John Muir

"The bicycle is the most civilised conveyance known to man. Other forms of transport grow daily more nightmarish. Only the bicycle remains pure in heart."
........ Iris Murdoch

"Photography for me is not looking, it's feeling. If you can't feel what you're looking at, then you're never going to get others to feel anything when they look at your picture...."
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On Tuesday I had the last of the FEC phase of chemo. In 19 days time I'll be half way through the regime which is great. I'm hoping that I have as few bad side effects from the taxotere as I did from the FEC but will have to wait and see.

Chemo Day was quite scary - I knew my neutrophils had been 0.4 from at least the Thursday before to the Sunday morning and had been told that it would either be delayed for a week or the dosage changed on Tuesday if they didn't improve. Also over the course of my incarceration it transpired that my veins are collapsing. That's not as dire as it sounds, but means getting any amount of blood out or any other stuff in is problematic. This should fix itself after chemo but isn't particularly useful right now.

The head of the oncology practice gave me a b*ll*cking for discharging myself, although I'd only have been kept in for another day anyway. I (believe I) knew what I was doing; for sure I wasn't displaying any of the symptoms of septicemia (a big risk for those on chemo) and am still taking the antibiotics just in case.

During the incarceration - apart from pain and bruising in the area around the catheter that was used for the antibiotics IV- I really did feel perfectly well and whenever possible left my phone number with the nurse and walked lap after lap around the hospital and adjoining mini park.

Another good thing came from this. Having been ill and exhibited that I'm at-risk, NHS deems me eligible for the drug that boosts bone marrow production of white blood cells and neutrophils. It's something I wanted from the start but not having a spare £2,000 per cycle couldn't afford to do it privately. Apparently you need to be taught how to jab yourself in the stomach with a 3mm needle so the nurse will be visiting on Saturday.

Good came on Chemo Day too. After delivering Sunday's shots for a front cover commission I have another photo-only commission from Dance Today. Since I'm not ill, get the drug I wanted anyway, didn't have to delay the chemo, am nearly half way through and am off to Trafalgar Square for a midnight shoot later this week I think I've experienced a net gain :)

There may have been no reception in the wards but the phonecam got a good workout in my hospital stay - here are some of the shots.

PrincessJun says:

As a consolation to it being a hospital it looks like nice grounds to walk around. Looking forward to you posting some of the Trafalgar Square results! :)

12th Aug 2009, 10:48

paintist says:

the mood seems very sunny in these shots :-)
Hope the injections go well on Saturday...if not, giving jabs will be added to another of your skills :-))
* edit oops...you will be learning on Saturday! I misread and thought she would be giving you the shots regularly...

12th Aug 2009, 11:45

FilbertFox says:

IS that your BP?

12th Aug 2009, 11:55

Dhamaka says:

thank you PrincessJun and Paintist

Paintist - not hanging around all day for the NHS if I can help it

FilbertFox - yes it is, when I'm training hard and regularly it's between 90-112/54-64, this was taken with me lying down (they discovered the only time they could be sure of finding me in the room was when the antibiotic drip was on) so don't start worrying..

(edit) and this was for Thurs night and Fri daytime

12th Aug 2009, 12:00

FilbertFox says:

ok then

12th Aug 2009, 13:37

JokerXL says:

There's really no keeping you down is there?

Ambulance crew's what?

12th Aug 2009, 14:08

Caine says:

What a lot to go through! I'm glad so much good is coming out of your recent experiences, getting those expensive meds is fantastic news. 1st and 7th shots faved. xxx

12th Aug 2009, 17:04

minkey says:

Halfway trough soon... :) hope taxotere sessions will go well xx

12th Aug 2009, 18:52

Viv says:

back home now - glad to see you managed a net gain :) - sorry didn't respond to texts - but left my phone in my car (my friend drove me to Norfolk)!

13th Aug 2009, 13:51

Dhamaka says:

:)
Joker - since I don't imagine you actually wanted 3 identical comments I deleted 2 of them

thank you all

13th Aug 2009, 14:15

JokerXL says:

You deleted my comments?
I thought what I said was well worth repeating, twice!

It's the damned phone, so slow to respond, network crawls along, never sure if it's sent or not.

13th Aug 2009, 14:44

Dhamaka says:

no worries

13th Aug 2009, 17:26

Dhamaka says:

:)
thank you

14th Aug 2009, 10:42

Jig along says:

Good to hear that your up and about and that your nearly at the point where your closer to finishing the treatment than you are to starting.

14th Aug 2009, 13:08

SLG says:

Good to hear you are getting the extras. sticking a needle in your tummy isnt actually too bad and alot less painful than your legs.

15th Aug 2009, 23:31

Dhamaka says:

Jigalong - If I'm not up and about then be very worried... However the side effects/symptoms whatever are getting more difficult to endure so the time I have to get through is becoming more important every day

SLG - I'll take your word for it and pray that it doesn't come to trying out needles in my legs. However, this is the first time in my life I've wished was fatter

16th Aug 2009, 14:32